press PAUSE then PLAY

for the nth time i am hearing my thoughts speaking to me to the loudest possible pitch my sense of hearing can withstand....it's a weekend and worse F1 weekend and i'm here at my room doing nothing.capital L word on my forehead with blinking lights flashing i know ryt???? nyahahaha:-p the thing is i don't mind...in fact i love fleeting moments...alone time is me time. it helps me see things straight and clearer. suddenly those clouds that hover and threaten to rain anytime soon suddenly faded. it's a known fact that their are episodes of life that we can't seem to find the  answers we are looking for. not that we are searching for answers, it's just that versions may vary and maybe at lost as to which one to believe. a part of us wants to cling on the good things but the skeptic and rational reality pulls our feet and violently slaps a hundredfold with "hey! you gotta move forward gurl!" most of the time i think we really do! comfortably treading the point of no turning back but at a certain point something makes you stop for awhile. and in those moment pause taunting thoughts start to hunt you and everything you said before all sounds ridiculous and thrown at the window nayahhaa:-p many of us constantly trek on this halted period. believe me i've seen and know a lot of them.i don't really have the answer as to why this phenomena occurs but i guess the safest answer would be because of mountain height of unfinished business...maybe as you move forward, a memory still lingers of the good times despite the nasty outcome. the intermission break makes you appreciate the significantly good things that has happen to you along the way. either you let this halt time take you to step forward or rewind to retrace your pace is not an indicator if you are making the right or wrong move...let's say it's any one's gamble. after all we are all given free will to judge as we see fit on what's good or bad...like the cassette recorder we can always press PAUSE then PLAY:)