they say your worse enemy is yourself and i would agree to it. i can remember natalie portman's character in the black swan...too much expectations and setting the highest standards possible we put on our shoulders can sometimes get the best of us...the end result instead of having the best version of ourselves is a destructive alter ego that we cannot bear to face and end...

probably, it's just a bad day today so i'm writing on very pessimistic spirit...i ask forgiveness in advance and hope that one day as i read through this entry i would laugh at its lameness and pointless...i had a flu shoot last thursday, even though its not the first time i had a fever, my left arm went numb the whole night and i couldn't report to work. the next day,as what happens everyday when my phone alarms at 830 in the evening, i contemplated on going absent again but i managed to get up and decided with a heavy heart to work. i mean what the heck! it's already the last day so maybe i can just influence my dampen spirit that it will be over soon just suffer the 9 hours and it will FREEDOM!!! base on my calculation i would arrive just in time but to my dismay i was late for 3 minutes. To top it all! i was again enrolled to CSAT U ...to add to my now very very defeated spirit just by missing a mere point something to pass...i so wanna curse and throw things at that instant but i stopped myself with the mantra it could get worse and it comes in 3s so that kinda makes me immune...i hope....hhayz...my God! I can't wait for this day to end:(