i am having this eureka thing and i just need to vent it out....oh well work has been stressful...i wish i could say in a good way but lately it has been overwhelmingly stressful...everyday has been like walking on egg shells and i feel that everything i say or do is closely studied/ridiculed into microscopic proportions....but then again i am still thankful and still on the point where i can't complain....not yet! who knows maybe in months time everything should be easy and breezy....the road to become better had never been easy...no shortcuts! so i am taking everything as a challenge that i have to survive and eventually triumph...but that's not what this entry is all about..as they say it's all in the mind...whatever state we are in if our mind can perceive and endure then it always has its effect...i just recalled a time in my life and a lot of this coming from facts that i am just starting to piece together not to mend nor closure but just to get to the bottom of everything once and for all...i am certainly looking forward to the day when the person involved could muster the courage to face me not to say sorry (i believe we are so pass that stage!) but to iron out some things....as i've said i'm in a happy place now but a part of me still wanted to believe that the said person still has the innate good nature:) the biggest blooper of it all is the paranoia that everyone was plotting behind my back and wishing all evil things to happen for me when in fact they just didn't care pak! nayahahahhaa a big slap on my face so to speak but again i'll just stick to "charge it to experience"....what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger diba according to mareng kelly nyahahaaa:)
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