life is a series of contrast...it always come in pairs like black and white,the yin and yang, good and evil and so on and so forth...this contrasting yet harmonious effect they have are spices that make life interesting...i am in a bit having a vacation hangover from my last trip...i'm a bit surprise on how random things can just happen out of the blue...suddenly the fun needed to have an abrupt ending...bittersweet in a sense but as always no regrets...what i'm actually trying to point out is whenever we have good things happening it is always coupled with something in return. i have always been happy with the way life has been and i couldn't complain how it turned out. however, i've been happier in fact consider it happiest so far returning from the trip. meeting people is one interest i have ever since i can remember but some of them just leave a special memory and place on my book of life  nyahahahaa:) please don't quote it as a romantic statement because it never is to begin with...just plainly interested partly envious on the adventure they are having...hahayz....:)

quesera sera

i admit i am one of the most gullible person that goes in hand in hand with my happy go lucky persona and at times it has worked to my advantage...i'm certainly not trying to be pa-cute when i'm being naive...that's just how i am and a lot of things can catch my curiosity oftentimes endangering myself so i have developed a tough fascade over the years but to the core i'm just a regular girl that melts from time to time...i just came back from a vacation to one of my local dream destinations~PALAWAN! to rate it is by far the most memorable break i had granting that i get to explore a lot of myself and be on-site one of the world's natural wonders:)...every destination is different in terms of reason why i went there, was there and experiences...it could be happy,sad or just neutral state...i delight on the opportunity to meet people from different walks of life and culture...there is much to learn and share...it feels good to talk to someone who is/are very different from what i believe and know and the good thing about being on vacation is that you don't argue or outdo each other you just listen and flash smiles:) nyahahaa:-p this time though i am a bit envious on the new friends i meet...like they can give up work and travel...GOD! i wish i can do the same but reality bites...i don't have finances like them so i work so i can travel...i don't complain i mean i can and cannot at the same time no matter how crazy it sounds...but it won't hurt to wish a little right? nyahaa:-p anyway, to end my post i've never felt so good and open about myself...thanks to this trip!...until my next destination...quesera sera:)

HAPPY THANKSGIVING

i admit that i haven't been blogging like i used to..not because i don't have time nor my mind just closing out on creative juices...in fact i've been meaning to blog a lot of things like little things and micro ideas that will suddenly just pop out of nowhere...but i have come into maturity on things to open up because most of the time they were triggered by things that irrated me or left me unaffected in general...so it's safe to say when they are published to the public in went through a lot of thinking nyahahaaa:-p 

today is thanksgiving day in US and for the past 6 years i had come to embrace it  as part of the many many Filipino holidays i celebrate and of course the obvious reasons almost no call shift nyhahaaa:-p but this year is extra special since it's also my sister's bday (ddang) so all the more reason to party! nyahahhahaa:-p plus i get to organize with jejen and junelyn our birthday surprise for our team leads brian and clyde complete with balloons, banner and uber2x food...so if you can see me now..you will see me in a big grin of smile painted all over my face...it's kinda like early Christmas for today nyahahhaa:-p 

the cold breeze is finally here...and without a doubt Christmas is around the corner...certainly not something i can deny anymore nyahahaa:-p i don't hate Christmas just that over the years I longed to be with my family and have the Christmas noche buena mama prepares...God I miss having a normal life as in my Cagayan life! drama echoszzz mode again!...normal is a word that i never associate myself with eversince...the choice i made are never normal but nevertheless it never ended without dramas...so it got me into thinking that dramas are what's normal for me nyahahhaa:-p contradicting and out of topic again! nyahhaaaa:-p going back, with the season being loving and happy in theme i'll try hardest to bring it into my life especially sa work kahit stress na stress na ako...i guess thanksgiving is for us to remember the things that we have to be grateful...things we have and things that we love...HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

just when i was about to give up...

oh well...i may have blogged earlier than expected regarding missed chances but i guess it's safe to say that i was given a chance just last weekend...all i asked was a chance to say my piece and I did and I am the happiest girl in the world nyahahhaaa:-p it's not that its officially official...i mean not yet but at least i know we stand on the same ground...babalik na naman ako sa complications in life theory...but come to think of it those complications are what makes life worthwhile and exciting...let's just say they spice up life! char! or maybe my life was never designed to be normal at all...i know there will be no assurance of this step i'm taking but i never felt this way for a long time...it felt so good that i can't stop smiling...isn't that what's important? although i have to take my heart with caution but i now will get it to work with my head so balance is maintained...as much as i hate to be patient i have to for now nyahahhaa...so i'm crossing my fingers and keeping my faith on something like this....:)

MISSED CHANCES :(

"Some things are just never meant to be, no matter how much we wish they were." 

in my life there had been a lot of times where i have been slapped in my face that there are  things that cannot be...no matter how hard you work or pray for it ...the only consolation  you can probably have is that you've tried and fought for it the best way you could...well it got me into thinking what if you have missed an opportunity just right in front your eyes would it have the same impact? to be honest, i don't have the right words to answer or even describe it. let's just say i've been busy with a lot of things and deeply obsessed on getting my goals that i failed to notice someone who clearly was asking for my whole attention...it was just all i have to do is focus on him and then i can be his world...i don't know if what i'm feeling right now is due to the fact that i feel guilty but who could blame me i couldn't see past our friendship...it could also be because i just got so scared and numb from all the broken promises that i blocked out anyone who truthfully show they care...now that i hear how he can care so much i am a bit jealous....because i know that i can never in my life get the chance to show it to him...now, we pretend that we are total strangers but would always bump into our circles and i just hate the fact that i cannot even talk to him or him to look into my eyes...i'm not asking for too much...all i'm asking is for a CHANCE...who knows what fate holds for us but as of the moment i truly and wholeheartedly MISS him...:( the thought of me not trying just kills me...so GOD please give me that chance:( nakow! mgdrama pa nang todo! listening to the only exception now! :-p

MABUHAY ang BAGONG SAKAL!!!! ayyyyy KASAL!!!! :)

who would have thought that one of the dreamgurlz would get married this year? if you ask anyone it'll  be unison "NEVER" nyhahahahahaa:-p but just last weekend one of our kind (ahem! rare and endangered!) just got hitched and we were just uber2x happy for ate aicha and kuya rico...for a hopeless romantic it would be the perfect avenue to once again feel and believe for the happy ever after tales we have heard and wired ever since....hahayz...all things beautiful and happy are what weddings for and i'm so glad to witness this one that when ate aich walked down the aisle we were in tears (tears of joy hap!)....the good thing about this wedding was that they planned it a year ago...so very rock 'n' roll as ate aich's favorite expression nyahhaha:-p now the next question....who's next? nyahahhaa:-p

finally!!!! MR and MRS AUXTERO!!!!

with the newlyweds @ reception

hala pag-agawan bah ang bouquet! nyahahhaaa:-p

1-2-3 CATCH!!!!!

I Wandered Lonely as a Cloud

"I Wandered Lonely as a Cloud"

 by: William Wordsworth  

 

I wandered lonely as a Cloud
That floats on high o'er Vales and Hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd
A host of dancing Daffodils;
Along the Lake, beneath the trees,
Ten thousand dancing in the breeze.

The waves beside them danced, but they
Outdid the sparkling waves in glee: --
A poet could not but be gay
In such a laughing company:
I gazed -- and gazed -- but little thought
What wealth the show to me had brought:

For oft when on my couch I lie
In vacant or in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude,
And then my heart with pleasure fills,
And dances with the Daffodils.

I came across one of my favorite poem...i just couldn't recall on what venue i recited this poem and  how old i was nyahahaha:-p...all i can remember is that i read it in front of my class and how the poem felt for me back then...sometimes i just wanna be high up in the sky, look down and be amazed on the wonders below...hhayz...life!