well it isn't always tense and stressful for the past 30 days.....i still LURVE to be in SINGAPURA:) we still find time to unwind naman kahit papano:)

our first night out in SG

pam and his prada guy

first beach outing!

with pretty jackie during our sentosa outing:)

me, rodney and pam inside the HEART....well hoping to be in LURVE in SG:)

 

 

 

bus ride to clarke with the glenn's

donna's bday celeb at ORGO bar

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

eds briefing us where to shop quality but at bargain rates! thanks eds:)

@ wild wild wet for easter with butch and rae

charmed! nyahahhaa

us enjoying the fake and simulated waves nayhaahahaha:)

so what's missing....uhmmmm papa God work please and an approved pass nayahaha:)

EASTER-eerie THOUGHTS

first off HAPPY EASTER! just when i thought that i will temporarily hold my breath until monday kicks walahhhhhh!!!! our extension for another 30 days got approved! mind you we (pam and i) are still drowsy and less sleep because aubrey talked about her SG life complications nyahhaa:) i would have opted to stay awake until 6am but then she asked a question i am not yet ready to share and i told myself not to....actually pam knew about the whole thing by sheer accident...uhhhmmmm in my part, it was something i chose not to share to protect all parties...never mind what are stories out there...i would neither confirm nor deny....my part of the story is mine alone and whatever side people take is the least of my concern....i am happy where i am and my dreams are about to happen or at least i believe they are happening nayahhaaa:) so why open up to something that is for me hap "old news"...basta yopak naman sya uist no matter how tempting to have my side of the story published pero for what uist...i made a choice and assumed it was all for the best so let's just stick to that mindset...dba why complicate things when there is always a way out? nyhahahaa:-p it wasn't easy...it was a process,  it took years for emotional rehab and a lot of conscious effort to forgive myself...so about the question if i pushed him into a decision...then maybe i'd go for yes and yes probably i left him with no choice...does that make me a bad person? not necessarily...maybe i just did them a favor:) maybe he could have been all i wanted and needed but i wasn't for him so that just put the odds in balance nyahahhaa:) isolation, desperation, semi-insanity and a whole range of emotions could have contributed but nevertheless still a HAPPY EASTER! if you see this sight wouldn't you SMILE kahit fake ang waves nyahhaaa:-p more pics to come just check pam's FB account since she is the official photographer pak! havey na kau ako yawyaw diri unya deadmalogy rah diay kau sa iyaha nyahahaaa;-p faetz:-p

 pic taken by my cam so quality is not that much nyahhaaa:-p

HELLO? is it me your looking for?

if only i can knock on all doors and sing that...will they take me in? i don't know how my decision will end or where it will bring me but this is one ride that made me asked a lot...on a personal note, professional level and religious aspect....i was excited to start this week and hopeful that finally i get to write down something that states how to survive or deal when they venture in this adventure...then again life has a funny way of turning things around when you already felt everything is about to come in full circle... was i devastated? of course i was! who wouldn't? did it ever occurred for me to cry? absolutely! i just probably opted to be rational rather than making scene out of it. did i question my competencies? super! did i doubt my decision to leave everything? never! and that made all the difference...in a snap i knew in my heart that this is the route i'd take...no matter how difficult and long this road leads me i am decided to fight it 'til the end... i promised myself that i would fight no matter how bleak the chances are...then  silently i  prayed for strength and to have faith in His plans....i lifted everything to His plans...i'm pretty sure i'm in good hands:) who knows a month from now or years will pass and then i get to read this post....this will remind me how i bravely stood up amidst uncertainties and doubts lurking around the corner....waiting for faith to drop...but i didn't....holy week ended!

it's been a life changing and teeth clenching week for me....i am not yet in the state of desperation...i mean it's too early to tell but i'm preparing for those days mentally and emotionally...considering financially as well...nyahhahaa:-p they say when you want to make your dreams a reality you gotta chase it! that's exactly what i am doing right now....but nobody told me it would be difficult not in a sense that i'm hopeless but in a way where my comfort zone is totally detached from where i am...like i miss my family, my conversation with my kapatid ddang and to top it all i am now missing inun-unan...ohhh dba? early morning drama...must be the dizzying silence but true enough i'm having those moments...on the other side, i'm super grateful for my SG friends who were very accommodating and provided valuable tips....i am super happy to meet and talk to them in the flesh...like i waited for two years for this to happen and it's just overwhelming....i'll keep this entry short and i'll try to keep you posted....i am only inviting good things....happy Sunday:)

PRE-LOVE SHOES

all shoes below are for sale since i won't be able to bring them to SG:)

please PM me on twitter and FB or contact me thru my mobile numbers....

all items are in good condition and will come with their original shoebox, silica gel and spare tikod....

they are only 2 years old but worn maximum 3 times....

need them sold before march 5, 2012

proceeds will help a lot in my new endeavour in life chos! thanks in advance:)





COLOR: off white, SIZE:37, BRAND: Mathews(CMG group), only wore this once, suggested price is at 1000 PHP



COLOR: camel, SIZE:37 BRAND: Mathews(CMG group), only wore this twice, suggested price is at 1000 PHP



COLOR: gold, SIZE:37, BRAND: Parisian elite, only wore this thrice, suggested price is at 800 PHP

COLOR: black, SIZE:38, BRAND: Mathews(CMG group), only wore this twicw, suggested price is at 1000 PHP

another S~ingle A~wareness D~ay

HAPPY HEARTS DAY! ( uhmmm belated na much nyahhahaaa) still im greeting:-p

nothing much for me...let's hope and try next year okay?

Irreconcilable differences

i always wonder why such a term or instance occur in real life…i always end up saying that there is a counter term “meet halfway” …until I came into deep thinking…it’s never easy to say goodbye…the bond and acquaintances I’ve made are not easy to cut…adding to the factor that it had been my home for 7 going 8 years…this is where I learned who I am and knew  what I wanted in life…I had my share of accomplishments and heartbreaks but I proudly say... was able to overcome...hopefully it made me a better person( kani dli ko ka-sure...be my guest:-p) …not a day goes by that I think about not leaving… but there are things that you just need to do…let’s start with familiarity breeds boredom…not in anyway to discredit anything or anyone, on a day to day basis life has become routinary rather than extraordinary….there are new things you can learn in every aspect depending on which angle you are looking...when all 360 views had been exhausted you end up feeling consumed and is constantly seeking for new things to learn… to grow to be the better version of myself …With humility I accept and embrace my faults…I’ve worked hard to where I am and I don’t want anyone to dare claim success in behalf of my achievement…that is totally BS! I honestly want to say I’m not happy…but happiness is not an issue. It is always a choice! You can find joy in almost anything around you...well I admit there are times you want to feel sad but i wouldn't let it drown me...Over the years, I have accepted and felt love in different forms...my love for family has extended not just on my own family but to my friends as well...if i were to draw a family tree it has grown vast...i welcome anyone who comes in my life although sadly many became instinct...time taught me to let go and move on...to laugh at my mistakes, to love someone despite their inadequacies, to respect individuality and to accept harsh realities...as i've said I'm not perfect and for sure along the way i may have intentionally or unconciously hurt some people...a number deserved it and a few victims nyahaahahaa and i humble apologize:)




my best to collate 7 years!

 

despite all the things mentioned, in times where I was unsure of myself, papa GOD sent instrument(s) crucial for my developtment as a woman chos! those people who have patiently stayed by my side and even walked with all my tantrums are keepers:) i have not only charged things to experience but also gained extended brothers/sistes/cousins and i will forever cherish and will be grateful of...as a way to end this, i am not leaving because i'm not happy or i'm running away from something/someone...i just realized that i want to be the person who first stepped in cebu 7 years ago...enthusiastically fragile to what the city has in store for her...funny but i felt that i have exhausted everything...i want to be surprised and be amazed to see things fresh...i have loved the city as my adoptive home but i need a new town! who knows my search for "the one" is actually gonna happen dba? I will definitely miss places, people and events! Inspite of it all i truly love you guys suhwear! Their were moments that I was about to just give up on this plan because i genuinely wanted to be with you when you need me or i am just totally pissed off with what you did ...alam nya naman i'm always available to listen, to drink and to cry but i don't hold grudges because it causes wrinkles nyahahhaah...all of that because i sincerely wanna be part of your life during the good and bad moments... seeing you are well eases the guilt i feel pero we can always have FB, twitter or any social networking sites dba? i just need to go back to basics and I want to start fresh:) Thanks much for everything and as the popular break up line says "It's not YOU...it's ME" nyahahhha....and so I rest my case on this Irreconcilable differences...